During graduate school, fresh from Brigham Young University, I attended a Mormon ward for single adults. I cared a lot about people feeling welcome and about spreading the good news. I knew how to fit right in in Mormonism, and I felt like it needed to be a place for people who didn't feel they fit. So I grew out my hair. I then grew a beard. I didn't always wear a shirt and tie, but sometimes wore clothes from other cultures I had picked up at a thrift store or an art fair.
My bishop once chided me for following the fashion by growing all that hair out. I said to this business conservative that I wasn't. I wasn't dressing like a businessman.
I thought it was a little mean after having said it. In this moment I think it's very sad.
Richest Church in the World
I just watched a documentary on the wealth of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Currently, the LDS Church is the richest single religious institution in the world. Of course the wealth of the Catholic Church dwarfs it as a composite, and some others are bigger, too, but those aren't single, centralized organizations, and none of their pieces are as rich as the LDS Church. The documentary is not bad, but it made me quite sad.
You see, I always thought the purpose of the LDS Church was to build Zion and welcome in the return of Christ. Of all the things you can quibble about the meaning---things like "one heart and one mind" for example---there is one aspect of Zion that doesn't leave a whole lot of ambiguity. There are no rich and no poor in Zion.
I looked at what I could see of LDS church finances and felt like it was ok. There were rich people, but many of the rich people I knew gave huge amounts away and lived quite modestly compared to their wealth. Utah was one of the most equal states in the country regarding wealth distribution. It bothered me a little to learn that one of the 12 apostles made some hundreds of thousands a year around 2010, but that was tiny for the size and wealth of the organization, so I excused it.
Most Mormon leaders volunteer their time, and members of the LDS church volunteer many hours a week not just in religious service, but in taking care of people in many ways. I read that Mormons do about four times as many service hours taking care of other people's physical needs as the average American, and that doesn't include the religious service they do. The LDS church must be doing something right. We always made a point of our clergy being volunteers who were not paid for their service.
We would tell stories about the rich men called to positions of power over the whole church who didn't take a salary at all. We would excuse paying the general leaders, because they had to spend all their time working for the church, and not just temporary volunteer hours.
But who was being chosen for these leadership positions? According to this documentary, what I was seeing anecdotally turns out to be a governing pattern.
Righteous Wealth
When I wondered why only the most economically successful men were called to be local leaders, I was told it was because they could afford to dedicate the time to church service. It made sense. But the consequences of that have not been trivial. The wealthiest men become local leaders. They meet the regional leaders. They become the pool for selecting new regional leaders. Those regional leaders become the pool for selecting general church leaders. Wealth rises to the top. Wealth is a prerequisite for the highest church honors, so wealth becomes a sign of righteousness.
Add to this the active efforts of the LDS church to unify its doctrine and practice that have been going on since the 1950s (or a little before), and anyone who openly discusses sticky points in the doctrine or practices of the LDS church becomes less likely to be called to a position of influence. So academics and scholars---who also might have time and energy to commit to church service---become much less represented and influential among church leadership. This happens both locally and generally. While people are proud of Mormon scholars in their wards, it's much more likely that a businessman or professional will be called as a local leader. And I can't remember the last scholar who was in a higher church position. To be called, you can't make anyone uncomfortable about LDS history, doctrine, or membership.
What has been the result? The LDS church is largely run by those who have been successful in a capitalist society. They bring many good intentions, but many of the biases of this society. They aren't quoting Hugh Nibley, or even Brigham Young, about the evils of wealth and capitalism. They say many good things, but you are 20 or 30 or 100 times more likely to hear about the evils of being a sexual being than you are to hear about the evils of wealth. This despite Jesus forgiving the adulterous woman and telling the rich man it's easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven.
Sadness
Most of my dearest friends are Mormon. Most of the family I love so much is Mormon. These are intensely good people. But if they dream of building Zion, either the LDS church will have to change, or they will never find their dream. As it is now, the LDS church is moving farther from the one thing that we can measure about Zion---that there are no rich and no poor. It's not just a symptom of human weakness. It's built right in to the way the church works.
I mostly keep my thoughts about Mormonism offline since I left, and don't go into it with most people. But I feel so sad, today, and I chose to write about it. Right now too many Mormons are mourning the death of a sexist, racist, opportunistic demagogue who made a living floating on the front of MAGA Repulicanism. A man who said: "I think it's worth to have a cost of, unfortunately, some gun deaths every single year so that we can have the Second Amendment." A man who was assassinated the same day as yet another school shooting that wounded two and killed one. I wish he had not been assassinated. I wish maybe even more that the LDS church and all the Mormons who are upset about this murder would stand up and be just as upset at all of the murders and kidnappings that our government is doing in the name of immigration policy and law and order. But that's not what is happening.
The richest church in the world is unwilling to speak clearly enough about these evils that its church members can hear. Many hear, but those who don't want to hear don't feel called to repentance. They feel called to lead their wards and stakes, and confirmed in their righteousness by this. And local leaders who would speak out self censor because they are convinced that unity is a higher principle than love. Agreement is love, and criticism is against your temple covenants. They feel unified with the general church positions and righteous in telling anyone who agitates that their disharmony is not from God. These are friends I grew up with and spent hours and days playing with. Friends I thought were thoughtful and curious about the world. Friends who are loving in person, but somehow are able to justify so much harm at a distance. I don't know if I could be in the same room with them, now.
I feel sad for my friends that rely on the LDS church for support, and even for their livelihoods, yet can't understand how church members can believe things so against the Mormonism they live. I feel sad for my friends and family that have given and continue to give so much to the LDS church while watching so many of their friends and neighbors depart so far from the gospel in their political beliefs and actions.
And I just feel sad, because people are adding so much evil to what's already a hard existence, and I don't have a powerful community I can work with to try to make it better. I once thought the LDS church was that. I'm sad it isn't.